Norah is the calm in our tornado. She matters and will move any mountain placed in her way.
Norah was a surprise pregnancy. We did fertility to get pregnant with our twins. We absolutely did not think it was at all possible to get pregnant on our own. I immediately recognized the signs that I was pregnant. I was in disbelief when I saw the double red line. I had 2 friends who were also pregnant. They recently did the suggested bloodwork for woman of an advanced maternal age. They both got the results back from their blood tests and were having healthy baby boys. I was 37 when I got pregnant with Norah, almost 38 so naturally I was also going to get the blood tests done. I also wanted to know early if we were having a boy or a girl. It didn’t really cross my mind that anything would come up in the results other than gender.
I will never forget the day I got the call that our baby girl had a little something extra. I was overwhelmed with sadness and I was terrified. My first thoughts were “I can never retire and I can never die”. I told the doctor through tears, that I knew in my heart this baby girl would bring us joy, but I was trying to wrap my brain around all that this joy involved.
My pregnancy was full of prayers, love, tears, joy, research, scans, doctors’ appointments and more scans. I tried not to worry, but I am a planner and there were so many things out of my control. We had barely gotten used to the idea that we were having a third child when we received her diagnosis. 6 weeks later we found out she had a major heart defect. Never have I ever been so scared, mad and fully in mama bear mode as I was that day.